Another trip tomorrow... where is all of this taking me?

Just so you know, for those of you who happen to be following my blog (thank you, thank you, and thank you!), I will be heading out on the road again Friday for the weekend. Depending on internet availability, I will try to blog while gone. Sorry I didn't indicate that I'd left a couple of posts ago, before my first trip. I accidentally left you all hanging. I apologize. Still learning blogging etiquette I guess!
So yes, I'm venturing out into the world with these trips! It's exciting and so different from the pre-Glutamate days (that includes the new diet and the first time I'd taken Resveratrol - which lowers Glutamate). This change has altered me in about every way you can imagine, except my heart and soul . Actually, I take that back. I think I'm able to even love more now than I could before, considering how preoccupied I was by simply trying to privately manage ALL of my horrendous symptoms. They are gone now. I've been released on good behavior. It appears my sentence is through. Thank the Lord in Heaven, I can honestly say now, that I thank him for the time served and of course the ending of it! (That is genuine gratitude to God - which my belief in has also quadrupled.) I've learned so much!
So what does God want me to do now with this knowledge? What does he want me to do with my new, improved mind? Let's face it. I'm taking little weekend trips to visit friends and family, but this whole adventure is the real trip. And what is my destination? Perhaps WHERE I end up isn't important; it's the venture that is. There is a famous quote which echoes here in my mind. I'm certain that is true, but I still can't help but wonder what lies ahead of me in my future.
I've come to an understanding about myself in the last few days that I want to share. First of all, I've applied and been accepted to the Institute for Children's Literature. This is exciting to me since I've always wanted to write for young people. This is also exciting since many people have been denied admittance to this school apparently.
See, I have these characters that I believe could be very helpful to kids who are dealing with emotional problems that they don't understand. I'll get into that little world I've been working on in another post.
So I'm starting a prestigious writing course after being tested by the Institute and passing. This makes me feel that my writing skills have potential. This obviously, makes me happy. I have a lot to say now. Communication is the art form of choice for me. Interestingly, my partner said that they miss my desire and ability to make art. What I'd like to say is that I still want to make art. I think I always will. But, now, it's in a different form. It's the art of communication that is sooo important to me. And writing, or course, fits right into it! I want to write for adults as well children. This course will help me refine my skills all the way around.
I've also interest in speaking - publicly. I've enlisted in Toast Masters and about to enroll in another course specifically for making a living at speaking. This excites me to no end.
Third, I've always naturally been a counselor at heart. Back in the day, had I not felt ONLY secure in isolating and protecting myself in my visual arts, I'd have become a therapist of some sort. Now, visual art does not hold the interest or safety that I needed before. It was a coping tool. (I feel safe all the time now.) My interest in helping people, however, is powerfully strong - stronger than ever. At times in my previous life, I'd think I'd wanted to become a life coach. Now... I KNOW I want to become a life coach!
I see a vivid and powerful future for Jason as these interests work together beautifully, hand in hand to form: a motivational speaking, children and adult book authoring, life coach! It's all about communicating all that I have learned on this adventure and helping people improve their own lives, filling them with hope for a powerful future - one that I now am personally heading toward myself!
And for my future and this farm that I currently live on... the seeds or ideas have been planted. I'm watering and fertilizing my ambitions by educating myself via online and in-class courses. Every day that goes by, I weed my old needs that just don't seem to apply any longer. My new sunny disposition and ambition seem to be the light fodder necessary to make my dreams grow. And soon enough, it will be harvest time. I will reap the financial but most important, emotional rewards of such a healthy bounty.
This is my internal garden. This is my new life's farm.
And externally, living on an estate with barns, edible plants and adorable animals, I did not realize until now the amazing parellels in my mind and physical life. I even thought for a moment it was time to leave the rural lifestyle, as healthy and wholesome as it is, to explore the world. Maybe in some way, I will. But I'm now understanding that I can have both - exploration and growth, and a stable, healthy home.
So it's important to move slowly, as I was reminded by my own counselor yesterday. As much as the rapidly advancing teenager inside me (I was just a preteen only a month ago!) wants to rush out and make up quickly for all the lost time, it's important that the "soon to be" adult in me lessons the child about the benefits of patience.
To my partner I say now, "I'm not going anywhere." The home we built is secure.
As Dorothy indicates to in the Wizard of Oz, all she ever wanted to find is right there waiting for her at her humble abode... and me with you, because, after all is said and done, "there's no place like home." I love you.